SO Mean

So my every school life is repeated as much as it could, it makes me feel sick.
I had no idea about my friends. I thought they were TRUE friends, but actually not. I thought there is no betray but there was. I thought both of us know what we are thinking but we dont actually.

I know that true friends they are the only true friends. After few years, they are still beside me. And the most important key to let made this success, I guest it is the my another way of communicate.
So now, I know that I'm totally suck in communicate. Who knows? That I dont even know how express myself in front of them. I couldn't speak honestly based on what my heart tell, but I could write.It meant sometimes, I hate to explain rather than writing a letter.

I always be honest and sincere in letter.

The way I spoke to my friends it might sounds sarcastically , sometimes. Then I figured, I only did that to my sincere friends. I cared about them, and I told them what my heart told, even though it might be mean. So mean am I.

Horoscope told me that I will be alone ....um the situation like no matter what.
Never mind, I will be ok.



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I wish i could curse (......) you like I always do, but I cant because we were friends once.
Wish you and I have a good life.

我不在这里

据说，我们90后00后都是爱无病呻吟的。大概是这样子吧。

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好像长大了点儿了后，开始不写一些矫情的文字。其实我还爱写呢。我也不知道为什么我就是喜欢那些忧伤的句子，然后喜欢写一些悲伤的结局。可是我都不写了，暂时不写了。很久没写了，以前还能自己幻想出积极向上的人物呢，现在啊常常在想一些很诡异的故事。

不过啊，都不写了。

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现在写不了太长的博文，怕自己会无病呻吟起来，怕会矫情起来。呵呵呵。

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我不在你那里，我这里不是哪里，我没有在哪里。